
Photo of the Week: Heavily Meditated. Meditation is whatever we focus our minds on. This can be repeated music lyrics, thoughts of ourselves, stories we tell ourselves about interactions we have had, or simply our breath.
Sometimes I find that I have been meditating on fear. Sometimes I wake feeling as though the day is destined to be bad. Then, I notice every ache, the clutter in my bedroom, and, without being conscious of it, I “prove” to myself that life is not going well. All before getting out of bed.
Several weeks ago, I decided to write affirmations in my desk calendar weeks ahead of the current date. I came across today’s, which reads, “There are good days and bad days. Bad days don’t have to be as bad as in the past. I have learned and grown.” Having struggled with depression for many years, if I wake with a bad feeling, fear immediately creeps in. It is the fear that I will feel as I have in the past.
But that is not necessarily true.
I wrote this statement to remind myself that I am not the same person I was in the past. Through therapy, medication, meditation, and aging, I have grown, I have learned new ways of coping, and I have a new perspective because of experience.
Notice what you meditate on. View yourself with compassion and curiosity and see where your thoughts go. If you notice that you are repeating an old, painful story to yourself, notice. You may be able to question that story. Or you may not yet be able to question it, but noticing helps. You can change your meditations.
We are not “destined” to feel bad. There may be bad days. There may be days that start bad and turn around. There is nothing that says they have to be as painful as days in the past. We grow and change. We learn. We can reach out. Maybe today is the day you reach out.



